Broken Home

Family consists of a father, mother, and children. Living under one roof with love. That's how God planned, created, and envisioned family. But what's happening today?

Broken marriage. Unwanted pregnancies. Family indiferences. These are the reasons why most family today are shattering. So far from the reality of God. 

I  personally don't know how to react when people so close to me are suffering from this dilemma. It is not easy to deal with and if I were in their places, I would have reacted, decided, and thought they way they have dealt the situation. BUT there is God.

I believe that God is the master of peace, the author of love, and the potter who molds each people. Definitely He wants the best for us. He designs life as a peleasing for us to live in. But sad to say, we destroyed what could have been a better and perfect place for us.

I am  saddened by families torn apart because of unresolved indifferences. Separation is not the only solution to the problem. Running away is not the only answer to an unending question. Face it and start growing up.

Just a Thought

I will sail the world and fly on its sky,

Will shout to the wind my love till it reach your skyline

I learned from God not to hold anger

So I'll just go on and be happy

To Tie a Knot

In the Book of Ecclesiastes, one chapter says that there are times for everything. Well true. If we know how to manage our time, true that we have all the time for our errands.

I was just thinking to whether or not will I get married. As I come to think of it, probably I won't. Probably my plan B, Lord willing (i mean if I won't have really get married), is to adopt. of course I don't like to be alone when I get old. haay,

I am doing work plus school plus church work, I guess I will really be an old maid. hehe. Single blessedness is a gift. I am not saying that I am giving up on this thought because God has a much amazing plan in my life, but at the moment, no marriage yet on the other end -- because I have nothing to tie a knot still duh?! lol

Ok, enough of that topic. I am getting depressed! LOL

Seen from a Distance

I am just thinking about this clever-ish thing. What if, just what if, that someone you've been praying and hoping to come and sweep you off of your feet is watching you and just waiting for the right time to reveal himself to you? just what if?

Getting Real: Awakening

It is a great feeling to know that somebody cares and loves you -- except for your family and friends. It is one emotion that I love to ponder. However there are some times that you will think about whether or not the emotion or the love is true. 

There's a special guy in my life. Special in a way that he truly is special. Definitely we're not together and definitely we're friends. I have come to a realization that what I may have felt long before was not true indeed. I thank God because He is always here with me, reminding me the things I should really be careful at.

That guy may come and go but still be special in my heart and I believe that wouldn't change. Anyone you love dearly and deeply will always be special no matter what happens.

We may not be for each other. The time spent, the messages sent, and the wonderful feelings will always be remembered and I will always thank God for this phase in my life where I've learned a little bit about life, love and priority.


I have learned a lot from our so called "relationship". I won't cry over my spilled milk. I think I can now move on and rejoice and be happy with whatever he wants to do in his life. To be married soon to a woman whom he finds himself spending the rest of his life with will be ok with me. I believe it will hurt, but I guess I'll be happy with them if that's the case. 

Until then, I will keep on obeying the One who owns my heart. God. :)

Antonello Joseph "AJ" Sarte Perez

AJ Perez. I only known this person via ABS-CBN's shows like Sabel and ASAP. He's not really a newbie but he's been on TV for quite sometime today.

Born as Antonello Joseph S. Perez to mother Victoria Perez and Gerardo Perez on February 17, 1993. I always see him appearing on ABS since his launch. Well he has a really good promising future ahead of him. But because of a vehicular accident -- that leads to a multiple head injury caused his untimely death.

I may not really known him personally but I really feel sad because of the many things he could have been in the future. I am very positive that given a chance to live longer, he will be the next matinee idol. And he's walking the same showbiz path with the late Rico Yan, who died because of ACUTE HEMORRHAGIC PANCREATITIS way in March 31, 2002. These two men are really fabulous. Everyone loves them so much. They love their fans and really honors their family. AJ and Rico could have been one of the best actors in the industry today.

AJ's sudden death really shocked everyone. Even people who doesn't know him got sad too. Given the fact that his vibrant life got really short. However, I came across this very cute letter from AJ to his future girlfriend. (I don't know where to cite the letter below, but I would like to say that it didn't come from me.)

Dear Future Girlfriend,

I’ve already come across many nice girls, all of them gorgeous in their own way, but like you, I am still searching. I don’t think it’ll be too hard, because I don’t really demand too much- after all, I am not looking for Ms. Perfect, I am looking for Ms. Right. Physically, you may be the simplest girl in the room, but there has to be that certain something about you that I find charming. It will be nice, of course, if you have positive attitude and an interesting personality. I hope that you can be understanding and supportive of the things I do and the things that are important to me. It will be great if you can make me laugh! There are no dull moments with someone that I know is funny. I want our relationship to be filled with excitement and surprises- I don’t want anything stagnant; I don’t want “just okay”. One of my weaknesses is the sweetness of a girl. If you can find a way to cheer me up after a long bad day, that would really make me feel good. I will also appreciate if you text me sweet stuff. I’d like to wake up to a good morning message from you, and go to bed at the end of the day after hearing you say goodnight. Another thing you should know: I believe that the best relationships always start from friendship. I want to be able to talk to you, be silly with you, and simply hang out with you. I want you to value the “friend” part of being my girlfriend. I also want us to share each other’s life, and I don’t want everything to be just about the two of us. I want our relationship to extend to other aspects of our lives, including our friends, family, and most of all GOD. A relationship will last only if we accept both the good and bad things about each other. Despite all the criteria I’ve mentioned above, I want to make it clear that I don’t want you to change a single thing about yourself just to please me. Losing your identity and turning into someone completely different is not necessary. Relax, I already like you, and I like you for who you truly are. I am looking forward to meeting you, and I know that one of these days, I will. I trust that we’ll find each other soon, and when that time comes, I know you’ll prove to me that you were definitely worth to wait.

Your Future Boyfriend, 

AJ PEREZ

This is really a cute letter. I remembered my True Love Waits session in Church. I salute AJ for waiting for his future girlfriend. For setting up standards for himself and of course for honoring God in his life.

I really feel sad because he's gone too soon. However, God has purpose why this happened to him and why he's gone at an early age. We have fair share of dreams for AJ and where could have been and what could have been his life if not because of that accident.

Condolence to his family and close friends. I may not be a fan but I am a kapamilya. AJ's memories will live on. 

You will be missed AJ! You went home too early! :) Nice to know your life and talents! Thanks for letting us know you. No good byes but see you soon!

Responsible Spending

Money makes the world go round. Without money, then you can't make anything in this world. Too much money can make your world up side down too! Money, money, money! What's wrong with it?

Money is not the problem; The people who holds them are! Budgeting is not a jargon word to those who receives money -- in whatever way it maybe. One thing that separates the rich and poor is how well they do their budgeting. Again, Money is not the problem in life -- it's the way people handle them that make the issues.


What seems to be the quick fix for this dilemma is to have that plastic-card-that-has-visa-or-master card-in-it -- CREDIT CARDS. Having one can be an advantage but can also be a disadvantage depends on the person owning one. 


One idea that made credit cards to reality is the idea of spending cashless. This idea isn't far from gambling. Say, you went to a casino; exchange your money to chips; then spend.. and spend.. and spend. Little did you know, you've lost your cash. Same bright idea in credit cards. You spend without seeing your money; keep on spending until you reach your limit and little did you know-- BAM! it hits you, you're broke!


This experience teaches a person on how to truly value money. Not treating it as a god nor not doing anything to get money. Money, in the right perspective can be a good helper. Spend what you can, and pay your dues in time will definitely help you in getting out of debt.


Money really makes the world go round. It can make your world go round and round! It's a liberating experience to own a credit card but owning one requires to have a great responsibility.


Be responsible with your money. Be responsible to pay.

Just Thinking...

I wonder why most people would believe to something not real? To actually rely on what the stars will say, to believe in what other people may predict, and would listen to their old customs of living.

My family was once like that. But as we go along, we came to know what the earth is saying, what the stars are for, what we should do about it.

The earth tells how great our God is! The universe is a great picture to illustrate the awesomeness, the greatness, the brightness, and the love of God! 

Everything works out according to His will! Amazing how the earth revolves around the sun and we still have oxygen to breathe and carbon dioxide to breathe out to help the plants.

Amazing how God, the creator of everything -- the sun, moon, stars, trees, falls.. etc, would have loved a person like us -- sinful in our very nature! Well, if there's really something not clear here, just let me know!

But all I know is God loves us and gave His one and only Son -- Jesus to die on the cross to save us from sin. Just to let you know, all of us have sinned and if we're sinners man, we need to pay for something we did.

Okay, it maybe a little bit confusing let me clear the dust off! Alright, here.

God is an everlasting God -- He's perfect! -- ok, no questions about that!

Man is just a man! -- NOT PERFECT, full of sin! -- whether you like it or not yes you are! Alright, maybe you're saying you've not done any huge crimes yet but let me ask you, are the small 'sin'  you're saying a sin or not? well yeah it is! Here, there are different kinds of apple, big and small, bright and not. Sin is the same, big and small but still it's a sin! 

Ok, with that, we have to pay for it! The Bible said 'For the wages of sin is death' -- ok, is that clear? no more elaboration! Oh no! We have to die because we have committed sins! Thousands of them! BUT WAIT!!! The passage doesn't end there! there is hope!

It continues: 'But the gift of God is eternal life through Christ Jesus our Lord" Ok, I know what you're thinking! Jesus is just a man! or maybe, you're laughing because you don't believe in the Bible or in this God that I am saying, or any other stuffs you're trying to argue with this truth.

Well, I cannot answer all of them in just one blog! But the Bible -- the Word of God is alive.

It records all about our Salvation! It tells about how we can give glory to God the creator of everything! One day, Jesus will come and His plan is for us to know and accept His Son as our Savior and Lord of our lives!

God is giving us an opportunity to be with Him, and we can only receive this gift if we accept Christ as our Savior and Lord of our lives! 

God's promise in Jeremiah 29:11 that His plans is for us to prosper, give us hope and a future! We can never experience this unless we surrender ourselves to God who provides and the giver of life!

Well, I guess, the stars, the people who predicts, our customs can't compare to what God did for us and what He's offering to us! None of these matters! None of these can assure us eternal life! Only God - the maker of Heaven and earth can give it to us!

Know what you believe in! Be certain! Never swerve to these illusion! Believe in God! Accept Jesus as your Savior and Lord! :)

Saving .. Save ... Saved!

I've read an article in Yahoo about a family living in wealth today -- by cutting down expenses. They made me think about couple of things and save for the things I need / want to get this year. Well -- I believe that in God there's no impossible. :)

So for this year I need to start "SAVING..." today!

I am going to save for:

1. Savings
2. Emergency
3. Health
4. Leisure 

Well, today I am going to be living a cheap life! :)

I'll cut my super-extra expenses on:
1. Food
2. Books
3. Shopping
4. Groceries


I know God will help me! and I thank God for this new things to learn this moment!

Have a wonderful day!

Define: FAMILY

Meet the Bates Family from Tennessee!

http://news.yahoo.com/video/us-15749625/the-bateses-and-their-18-children-23906649

From ABC News.

Whoa I couldn't get the video though.... But yep.. Click on the link!


Honestly, Praise God they have 18 kids and they seem to be pretty close huh!?


I can't imagine myself with 18 kids.. but man, this family inspires me!

Another Ocean Dream

Wow. Last night (January 17, 2011) I had another ocean dream. But this one is different! Super different. I used to  dream about myself looking at the  ocean, on top of it or swimming into it going somewhere. Last night was super different.

Geez, I thought it was a chick flick running in my sub-conscious but I guess it's not. Okay here it goes:

It all started by the beach. Puerto Galera, Philippines -- for some reason I knew it was Puerto Galera not because I am seeing white sand but because I saw sharks. Two white sharks waiting on the shore. I was walking along the beach with a little girl by my side when I spotted Two humongous sharks waiting for something-- I am not sure if they're waiting for their prey or what but yep that was scary. 

I made sure it was shark before I yelled at everyone to run for their lives-- but, geez I felt like drowning. Then the water arises-- as in it raises! like tsunami raising.. something like that. Then the sharks hurriedly swam near to the people by the beach. Then I got the little girl's hand and we were swept by the strong current of the sea. 

Thank God we weren't eaten by the sharks. We hurriedly went to a building. At first It thought it was a hotel from the outside. I guess it was a hotel. Then we reached the elevator. (now this one's the scary part) I was yelling at the little girl to come inside the elevator for us to up but she hesitated. She held the elevator door opened. "No!" then she cried. I saw the massive water coming to us. I pulled her inside the elevator and the door closed. Then, something creepy happened inside. The elevator suddenly went crazy. Then the girl started to cry really hard. I guess the little girl was crazy. Then I saw the elevator screen go blink then it says G then to B1 then go blink again... then I don't know what happened because I really can't remember.

When the elevator opened, We were in a different place. My home. Then for some reason I can't remember where the little girl went. Across, I saw my office mate and she's wearing a red blouse. I was waving at her but she can't see me. Then I heard somebody knocks on my door. I opened it. (Then There's something here i can't really remember) The next scene was I am about to leave my home. Then my friend wearing a red blouse is standing on our Terrace looking down on us with a sad/guilt face. I was with another person -- I am not sure whom but the person is a guy.

Creepy eh?

The Ocean

The other night. (Friday night January 7, 2011) I had a dream. Another dream including water and mosters and running!

I can't fully tell the details now because I couldn't remember all of the things that had happened. They're becoming hazy as days go by but before I can't no longer remember that dream let me tell it to you


All I know, I was in the middle of the ocean and inside an unknown vehicle. I am not sure if I am riding a ship or it was a building or something. There is water - that's underrated. There is ocean. I didn't see the ocean though but I know I was in the middle of it.


There were 3 or 4 other people with me. we were at some place high. I was with 2 women and we're all afraid. Afraid of those monsters after us. The monsters were like those you can see in Resident Evil! That sort of monster. Then a man joined us. We started running. Running for our lives and looking for escape.

Then we ran and ran until we came to a tall steel green or blue gate that we have to climbed on. The monsters were behind us. They were so close that I was so afraid of them. One of the two women is crying and the other was grabbing me. I was still trying to get a hold onto the gate but too late the monsters ate the two women.


As the water rise inside a place I can't figure out what, the monsters were eaten by a strong current.


Then I woke up.

MBA... MBA ... MBA or IT?

Wow. Further Studies. I can't imagine myself getting a Masters Degree at the moment -- even thinking about it! I mean considering to apply for one! Did I confuse you? well, when I was a little bit younger, I don't like to study but now that I am a little bit older I believe the school is calling me... as in calling my name louder (Ok. I am not insane! LOL)

Well, not that I am not confident but I am shy to present my little credentials to the University I would like to apply to. Oh man!


At the moment, I am considering 2 Schools. First is the Ateneo Graduate School of Business (AGSB) and UP. I've done quite of my part in researching. I am really clueless about what to expect and what I needed to do. Oh to add more challenge and anxiety, I am just 25 years old and will get an MBA. I know age doesn't matter if you want to study but..... I am afraid that's the truth.


I will keep on praying for this. Because I believe in God's will. If this is His will, then certainly I can get in! If not, then God has a much bigger plan for me... right?

Crescent Moon - Charice

Her name is Charice Pempengco. Who doesn't know this very talented girl from the Philippines?

I can personally say that she's a total package. She can sing, dance and can definitely act! From her humble beginnings to stardom! WOW!

And her progress is unbelievable! I can say that she's a much better singer now. Her accent is almost gone and she can converse now! Congratulations!

Oh, and while I was really watching her videos and progress, I tripped on this video. It's called CRESCENT MOON originally by a japanese singer AYAKA. And wow, she made it GOLD in JAPAN! wooohooo! I like the original arrangement but Charice's version has something I can't describe. It's like she's not singing the song but relate it to you(to one listening)

I became a fan of her and this song after the first time I played this song. 

So, without anymore reviews... here it is..... click on PLAY!

Here's the lyrics!

Ohhh... Wooo ...Hooo....

We always were together

Walking the same road

You and me like Destiny

But then the path had parted

You went down one road,

And I went the other way

Loneliness, the feeling in my heart

Is all I have to hold today,

Looking at the sky that's almost just about to cry

I have to say, but I can't help but think of you

Chorus:

I'm beneath the night.

And you're not there, No I won't cry

Won't cry anymore, trying hard to live a life without you

Too peaceful, when I think about you...

Maybe, you're seeing the same big star

A crescent moon, glaze into the night

It's a night they're bringing us together

You know I love you more than ever

Ohh...Ohh...

Yeaa ...yeaa ...hey...yeaa

The days are getting colder (colder)

Keeping my hands warm, by myself , reality

I miss your arms so badly

Wanting you here with me

Want you here with me

Even though you call me

And tell me how much you love me, I get blue (I get blue)

And no one wanna hear it,

But I really don't like to leave on you

So I wipe the tears away...

Chorus:

I'm beneath the night.

And you're not there, No I won't cry

Won't cry anymore, trying hard to live a life without you

Too peaceful , when I think about you... Ohh ...Ohh...

Wonder when I will see you again

Until that time again, I guess I'll have to live

Feeling the power you gave me,

When you hold me close

And said I'll always love you, you know....

Here beneath the night.

And you're not there, No I won't cry

Can't cry anymore, trying hard to live a life without you

Too peaceful, when I think about you.. Ohh ...Ohh...

Maybe, you're seeing the same big star

A crescent moon, glaze into the night

It's a night they're bringing us together

You know I love you more than ever

Holding on my hands, can you feel the pain?

I'm reaching out to you, Crescent moon...

hmmmm...

Life's Lesson in Friendship

"No man's an island" that saying would probably be used the most used phrase referring to friendship. I would agree. There's really no one who can live alone on earth! You need someone to help you get through in tough and happy times of your life.

Friendship comes in different forms and sizes. In different levels and difficulties. Friendship is a beautiful hue of diverse colors. A mixture of sweetness and bitterness; of sadness and happiness. People are created in need of friends. 

Most of the time you'll learn from your friends. You'll learn their heartaches, their laughter, their sadness, and their pain. You see them all and will understand how life is somehow. Sometimes friends help us mature in an easy or difficult ways.

Be careful in choosing your friends. The friends you chose today will become your teacher tomorrow. Sometimes they will teach you the hard way and sometimes they are as gentle as a lamb. Either way, one of the most valuable lessons that friendship will teach you is to be able to have a full understanding of your entire friendship. Conflicts may arise, laughter may always be present but friendship will last forever.

Friends have their own personalities. They have their own ways of coping and healing and friends should understand how their friends heal. 

Friendship doesn't always mean happiness. You became friends not only because you feel forever with each other but because you know in times of trouble and problems you can still depend on each other even if it means you're standing on two opposing sides.

The Secret Tower

I had a very short dream last night. Or was it last Saturday night? well whichever night it may be, i dreamed about something like a secret tower.

My dream started in a city. It looks like Paris. Stoned pavement, cold weather, old people. It's as if I was back in 19th Century the difference is that I was wearing my white collared blouse tucked in my short blue skirt with a pair of knee-high socks in my black high heels. 

I was standing in front of an old building. People doesn't seem to care how odd I looked to them, they just keep on walking. It wasn't a busy street or a busy day. It seems everyone has their own work. I stood there waiting for something. A time. Half a minute later, I found myself at an aisle. It was no more than one and one half meter wide. Outside, I am seeing the Eiffel Tower, the streets, the houses were small. It was a complete Acrophobia attack for me but I have to do something. I have to complete the task I needed to do.

I saw people coming out of doors as I stood quietly and patiently on the aisle. Again, waiting for something. A time. In front to where I am standing a small cabinet. I knew I needed that cabinet opened. Half a second after, I saw myself reaching something outside the window across the building I was in. It was a very small tower. A secret tower, I guess. I reached it, opened something on top of the tower. I found some documents, pictures, a book and a key. I put what I've got in my black medium sized sleek backpack.

I rushed to the cabinet across to where I am standing. I opened it with the key I got from the secret tower and found other things that I can't figure out what but I knew I needed those. Half a second had gone and people starting to come out to the doors again. I knew I had to move quickly. 


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Then I woke up.

Dreams

A week ago I had a dream. A vague one. It's as if it's in the middle of the movie. I don't know what happened and what its ending. However, I would like to share it.

We were on a journey, going somewhere. The place looks like a desert than a road. No signs, no pavement, nothing. Just tough winds everywhere and a leader in front of us. We were traveling on a long journey.

Our group looks like traveling from another city and going to another city. We were very sophisticated-looking group of young women with white tight collared-blouse tucked in our blue short skirts and knee high white socks inside our sand and wind proof brown cloaks. It was a long journey indeed but it seems no one's really had a sore feet wearing a high heeled black shoes. (now we're looking more likely like an anime here...)


The wind was really tough. The sand that comes with it makes it really harder for us to look straight. We're all depending on our leader to guide us.


Then she said "we're here. This is the end of my task. All of you must go downstairs." Then she's gone. 


We all followed her instructions. I was with my friends. We were in the middle of a group. I couldn't identify  our number because I didn't look around to check others. All I can see was there were some girls talking in front of us. Talking and chatting about something I don't know.


There in front of us an old looking building. So huge that it looks like a hunted building than a school. We were on stairs going somewhere deep, dark and cold. Halfway on the way, we saw a huge hole on the stairs. Strange that none of us felt scared or whatsoever. we continued in way going down the long stairs.


After sometime, we heard noise. Noises. People chattering. There are people to where we're going. A crowd. Then a sudden burst of light blinded me. There are people indeed, young people like our age going somewhere. They're all busy looking for something. Looking on the doors of what looks like a classroom.


We made our way to the busy crowd. My friends and I stood together as we look for our names on every door near us. I took off my cloak because I thought I was the only one wearing it. I really don't like crowds so I paid less attention on everyone. I heard my friend said that the three of us were in one room. I grinned while I am fixing my long black curled hair. A voice from somewhere said "It's you!" I didn't look because there can be tons of other people that voice might be referring to. "It's really you!" I look at his gaze, sensing I am in trouble I went hurriedly out of his peripheral vision. "Hey! hey! Wait up" he said. I didn't look at him. I keep on walking fast. "It's really you! Do you still remember me?" I stopped and looked at him. Well, he's taller than I am. Very manly physique. He has a very beautiful par of deep blue-green eyes and thin lips. I stared at him for a couple of minutes.


MY DREAM GOT CUT.


Then we're inside our classroom. My friends, the guy and I were in the same room. It looked like that the guy and I have feelings for each other. Then I was standing in front of the room and he's doing something on my right foot or leg. Then one of my friends started to make a joke to the guy. Then he got really furious at what my friend has said. He shouted furiously "GO HOME!" then, my friend number 1 went away. My friend number 2 was murmuring something bad. I got my phone and called friend number 1 and asked her where she was and she said, she's lost in the locker room then I looked at friend number 2 to tell her to go with friend number one ( I hope it's not confusing.) Then I looked at him. He sat on a nearby chair looking devastated. I held his beautiful face in my hands and said "I cannot sleep at your place if you're like that to my friends.." Then i kissed his left cheek. I keep on staring his beautiful face .... then...


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I woke up!




what do you think?

STOP Child abuse NOW!

This is for child awareness month. STOP CHILD ABUSE!

God loves the little Children. How about you?

Explore Philippines!

There are tons of things that I really can't understand here in the Philippines. Not that I really don't like it here (duh! I've been here since birth, how can I don't like living in here)

There are 5 things that I can't really handle living here.
1. MAJOR Traffic
2. Super High cost of food
3. Pinoys not loving the Philippines
4. Pinoys not following almost ALL RULES at anywhere at anytime
5. Pinoys dependent on each other and Crab mentality.


I really don't have to elaborate these problems... I mean.. Pinoys who live in the Philippines know this for sure! If you don't, then, Come and Visit US! :)




Well, That's just my opinion. Philippines is a beautiful country. We have the best beaches, the most beautiful landscapes and rich land! :) Explore Philippines! Come!

The Ocean called Work

What is working? What is it with working that it's so hard or easy for us to let go? I was just pondering at the moment what am I working for and with whom I am working?

At the moment, as in so many hours of pondering and contemplating on this, I've come up with this illustration:

That work is like an ocean.


Work like an ocean is vast. So many opportunities and so many challenges to face. Every after destination comes another journey that you have to decide whether to pursue or not. 


Work is a never ending travel. You're going to decide whether it's your time to stop and say 'This is the end' or still continue.


If you stop today, what about the other journeys? other opportunities?

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