Getting Real: Awakening

It is a great feeling to know that somebody cares and loves you -- except for your family and friends. It is one emotion that I love to ponder. However there are some times that you will think about whether or not the emotion or the love is true. 

There's a special guy in my life. Special in a way that he truly is special. Definitely we're not together and definitely we're friends. I have come to a realization that what I may have felt long before was not true indeed. I thank God because He is always here with me, reminding me the things I should really be careful at.

That guy may come and go but still be special in my heart and I believe that wouldn't change. Anyone you love dearly and deeply will always be special no matter what happens.

We may not be for each other. The time spent, the messages sent, and the wonderful feelings will always be remembered and I will always thank God for this phase in my life where I've learned a little bit about life, love and priority.


I have learned a lot from our so called "relationship". I won't cry over my spilled milk. I think I can now move on and rejoice and be happy with whatever he wants to do in his life. To be married soon to a woman whom he finds himself spending the rest of his life with will be ok with me. I believe it will hurt, but I guess I'll be happy with them if that's the case. 

Until then, I will keep on obeying the One who owns my heart. God. :)

Antonello Joseph "AJ" Sarte Perez

AJ Perez. I only known this person via ABS-CBN's shows like Sabel and ASAP. He's not really a newbie but he's been on TV for quite sometime today.

Born as Antonello Joseph S. Perez to mother Victoria Perez and Gerardo Perez on February 17, 1993. I always see him appearing on ABS since his launch. Well he has a really good promising future ahead of him. But because of a vehicular accident -- that leads to a multiple head injury caused his untimely death.

I may not really known him personally but I really feel sad because of the many things he could have been in the future. I am very positive that given a chance to live longer, he will be the next matinee idol. And he's walking the same showbiz path with the late Rico Yan, who died because of ACUTE HEMORRHAGIC PANCREATITIS way in March 31, 2002. These two men are really fabulous. Everyone loves them so much. They love their fans and really honors their family. AJ and Rico could have been one of the best actors in the industry today.

AJ's sudden death really shocked everyone. Even people who doesn't know him got sad too. Given the fact that his vibrant life got really short. However, I came across this very cute letter from AJ to his future girlfriend. (I don't know where to cite the letter below, but I would like to say that it didn't come from me.)

Dear Future Girlfriend,

I’ve already come across many nice girls, all of them gorgeous in their own way, but like you, I am still searching. I don’t think it’ll be too hard, because I don’t really demand too much- after all, I am not looking for Ms. Perfect, I am looking for Ms. Right. Physically, you may be the simplest girl in the room, but there has to be that certain something about you that I find charming. It will be nice, of course, if you have positive attitude and an interesting personality. I hope that you can be understanding and supportive of the things I do and the things that are important to me. It will be great if you can make me laugh! There are no dull moments with someone that I know is funny. I want our relationship to be filled with excitement and surprises- I don’t want anything stagnant; I don’t want “just okay”. One of my weaknesses is the sweetness of a girl. If you can find a way to cheer me up after a long bad day, that would really make me feel good. I will also appreciate if you text me sweet stuff. I’d like to wake up to a good morning message from you, and go to bed at the end of the day after hearing you say goodnight. Another thing you should know: I believe that the best relationships always start from friendship. I want to be able to talk to you, be silly with you, and simply hang out with you. I want you to value the “friend” part of being my girlfriend. I also want us to share each other’s life, and I don’t want everything to be just about the two of us. I want our relationship to extend to other aspects of our lives, including our friends, family, and most of all GOD. A relationship will last only if we accept both the good and bad things about each other. Despite all the criteria I’ve mentioned above, I want to make it clear that I don’t want you to change a single thing about yourself just to please me. Losing your identity and turning into someone completely different is not necessary. Relax, I already like you, and I like you for who you truly are. I am looking forward to meeting you, and I know that one of these days, I will. I trust that we’ll find each other soon, and when that time comes, I know you’ll prove to me that you were definitely worth to wait.

Your Future Boyfriend, 

AJ PEREZ

This is really a cute letter. I remembered my True Love Waits session in Church. I salute AJ for waiting for his future girlfriend. For setting up standards for himself and of course for honoring God in his life.

I really feel sad because he's gone too soon. However, God has purpose why this happened to him and why he's gone at an early age. We have fair share of dreams for AJ and where could have been and what could have been his life if not because of that accident.

Condolence to his family and close friends. I may not be a fan but I am a kapamilya. AJ's memories will live on. 

You will be missed AJ! You went home too early! :) Nice to know your life and talents! Thanks for letting us know you. No good byes but see you soon!