Crescent Moon - Charice

Her name is Charice Pempengco. Who doesn't know this very talented girl from the Philippines?

I can personally say that she's a total package. She can sing, dance and can definitely act! From her humble beginnings to stardom! WOW!

And her progress is unbelievable! I can say that she's a much better singer now. Her accent is almost gone and she can converse now! Congratulations!

Oh, and while I was really watching her videos and progress, I tripped on this video. It's called CRESCENT MOON originally by a japanese singer AYAKA. And wow, she made it GOLD in JAPAN! wooohooo! I like the original arrangement but Charice's version has something I can't describe. It's like she's not singing the song but relate it to you(to one listening)

I became a fan of her and this song after the first time I played this song. 

So, without anymore reviews... here it is..... click on PLAY!

Here's the lyrics!

Ohhh... Wooo ...Hooo....

We always were together

Walking the same road

You and me like Destiny

But then the path had parted

You went down one road,

And I went the other way

Loneliness, the feeling in my heart

Is all I have to hold today,

Looking at the sky that's almost just about to cry

I have to say, but I can't help but think of you

Chorus:

I'm beneath the night.

And you're not there, No I won't cry

Won't cry anymore, trying hard to live a life without you

Too peaceful, when I think about you...

Maybe, you're seeing the same big star

A crescent moon, glaze into the night

It's a night they're bringing us together

You know I love you more than ever

Ohh...Ohh...

Yeaa ...yeaa ...hey...yeaa

The days are getting colder (colder)

Keeping my hands warm, by myself , reality

I miss your arms so badly

Wanting you here with me

Want you here with me

Even though you call me

And tell me how much you love me, I get blue (I get blue)

And no one wanna hear it,

But I really don't like to leave on you

So I wipe the tears away...

Chorus:

I'm beneath the night.

And you're not there, No I won't cry

Won't cry anymore, trying hard to live a life without you

Too peaceful , when I think about you... Ohh ...Ohh...

Wonder when I will see you again

Until that time again, I guess I'll have to live

Feeling the power you gave me,

When you hold me close

And said I'll always love you, you know....

Here beneath the night.

And you're not there, No I won't cry

Can't cry anymore, trying hard to live a life without you

Too peaceful, when I think about you.. Ohh ...Ohh...

Maybe, you're seeing the same big star

A crescent moon, glaze into the night

It's a night they're bringing us together

You know I love you more than ever

Holding on my hands, can you feel the pain?

I'm reaching out to you, Crescent moon...

hmmmm...

Life's Lesson in Friendship

"No man's an island" that saying would probably be used the most used phrase referring to friendship. I would agree. There's really no one who can live alone on earth! You need someone to help you get through in tough and happy times of your life.

Friendship comes in different forms and sizes. In different levels and difficulties. Friendship is a beautiful hue of diverse colors. A mixture of sweetness and bitterness; of sadness and happiness. People are created in need of friends. 

Most of the time you'll learn from your friends. You'll learn their heartaches, their laughter, their sadness, and their pain. You see them all and will understand how life is somehow. Sometimes friends help us mature in an easy or difficult ways.

Be careful in choosing your friends. The friends you chose today will become your teacher tomorrow. Sometimes they will teach you the hard way and sometimes they are as gentle as a lamb. Either way, one of the most valuable lessons that friendship will teach you is to be able to have a full understanding of your entire friendship. Conflicts may arise, laughter may always be present but friendship will last forever.

Friends have their own personalities. They have their own ways of coping and healing and friends should understand how their friends heal. 

Friendship doesn't always mean happiness. You became friends not only because you feel forever with each other but because you know in times of trouble and problems you can still depend on each other even if it means you're standing on two opposing sides.

The Secret Tower

I had a very short dream last night. Or was it last Saturday night? well whichever night it may be, i dreamed about something like a secret tower.

My dream started in a city. It looks like Paris. Stoned pavement, cold weather, old people. It's as if I was back in 19th Century the difference is that I was wearing my white collared blouse tucked in my short blue skirt with a pair of knee-high socks in my black high heels. 

I was standing in front of an old building. People doesn't seem to care how odd I looked to them, they just keep on walking. It wasn't a busy street or a busy day. It seems everyone has their own work. I stood there waiting for something. A time. Half a minute later, I found myself at an aisle. It was no more than one and one half meter wide. Outside, I am seeing the Eiffel Tower, the streets, the houses were small. It was a complete Acrophobia attack for me but I have to do something. I have to complete the task I needed to do.

I saw people coming out of doors as I stood quietly and patiently on the aisle. Again, waiting for something. A time. In front to where I am standing a small cabinet. I knew I needed that cabinet opened. Half a second after, I saw myself reaching something outside the window across the building I was in. It was a very small tower. A secret tower, I guess. I reached it, opened something on top of the tower. I found some documents, pictures, a book and a key. I put what I've got in my black medium sized sleek backpack.

I rushed to the cabinet across to where I am standing. I opened it with the key I got from the secret tower and found other things that I can't figure out what but I knew I needed those. Half a second had gone and people starting to come out to the doors again. I knew I had to move quickly. 


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Then I woke up.

Dreams

A week ago I had a dream. A vague one. It's as if it's in the middle of the movie. I don't know what happened and what its ending. However, I would like to share it.

We were on a journey, going somewhere. The place looks like a desert than a road. No signs, no pavement, nothing. Just tough winds everywhere and a leader in front of us. We were traveling on a long journey.

Our group looks like traveling from another city and going to another city. We were very sophisticated-looking group of young women with white tight collared-blouse tucked in our blue short skirts and knee high white socks inside our sand and wind proof brown cloaks. It was a long journey indeed but it seems no one's really had a sore feet wearing a high heeled black shoes. (now we're looking more likely like an anime here...)


The wind was really tough. The sand that comes with it makes it really harder for us to look straight. We're all depending on our leader to guide us.


Then she said "we're here. This is the end of my task. All of you must go downstairs." Then she's gone. 


We all followed her instructions. I was with my friends. We were in the middle of a group. I couldn't identify  our number because I didn't look around to check others. All I can see was there were some girls talking in front of us. Talking and chatting about something I don't know.


There in front of us an old looking building. So huge that it looks like a hunted building than a school. We were on stairs going somewhere deep, dark and cold. Halfway on the way, we saw a huge hole on the stairs. Strange that none of us felt scared or whatsoever. we continued in way going down the long stairs.


After sometime, we heard noise. Noises. People chattering. There are people to where we're going. A crowd. Then a sudden burst of light blinded me. There are people indeed, young people like our age going somewhere. They're all busy looking for something. Looking on the doors of what looks like a classroom.


We made our way to the busy crowd. My friends and I stood together as we look for our names on every door near us. I took off my cloak because I thought I was the only one wearing it. I really don't like crowds so I paid less attention on everyone. I heard my friend said that the three of us were in one room. I grinned while I am fixing my long black curled hair. A voice from somewhere said "It's you!" I didn't look because there can be tons of other people that voice might be referring to. "It's really you!" I look at his gaze, sensing I am in trouble I went hurriedly out of his peripheral vision. "Hey! hey! Wait up" he said. I didn't look at him. I keep on walking fast. "It's really you! Do you still remember me?" I stopped and looked at him. Well, he's taller than I am. Very manly physique. He has a very beautiful par of deep blue-green eyes and thin lips. I stared at him for a couple of minutes.


MY DREAM GOT CUT.


Then we're inside our classroom. My friends, the guy and I were in the same room. It looked like that the guy and I have feelings for each other. Then I was standing in front of the room and he's doing something on my right foot or leg. Then one of my friends started to make a joke to the guy. Then he got really furious at what my friend has said. He shouted furiously "GO HOME!" then, my friend number 1 went away. My friend number 2 was murmuring something bad. I got my phone and called friend number 1 and asked her where she was and she said, she's lost in the locker room then I looked at friend number 2 to tell her to go with friend number one ( I hope it's not confusing.) Then I looked at him. He sat on a nearby chair looking devastated. I held his beautiful face in my hands and said "I cannot sleep at your place if you're like that to my friends.." Then i kissed his left cheek. I keep on staring his beautiful face .... then...


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I woke up!




what do you think?

STOP Child abuse NOW!

This is for child awareness month. STOP CHILD ABUSE!

God loves the little Children. How about you?

Explore Philippines!

There are tons of things that I really can't understand here in the Philippines. Not that I really don't like it here (duh! I've been here since birth, how can I don't like living in here)

There are 5 things that I can't really handle living here.
1. MAJOR Traffic
2. Super High cost of food
3. Pinoys not loving the Philippines
4. Pinoys not following almost ALL RULES at anywhere at anytime
5. Pinoys dependent on each other and Crab mentality.


I really don't have to elaborate these problems... I mean.. Pinoys who live in the Philippines know this for sure! If you don't, then, Come and Visit US! :)




Well, That's just my opinion. Philippines is a beautiful country. We have the best beaches, the most beautiful landscapes and rich land! :) Explore Philippines! Come!

The Ocean called Work

What is working? What is it with working that it's so hard or easy for us to let go? I was just pondering at the moment what am I working for and with whom I am working?

At the moment, as in so many hours of pondering and contemplating on this, I've come up with this illustration:

That work is like an ocean.


Work like an ocean is vast. So many opportunities and so many challenges to face. Every after destination comes another journey that you have to decide whether to pursue or not. 


Work is a never ending travel. You're going to decide whether it's your time to stop and say 'This is the end' or still continue.


If you stop today, what about the other journeys? other opportunities?

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The Master of Study

I am so done watching another Korean drama at 

dramacrazy.net

^^,

I think it's one of the good drama Korea had made. It is an inspiring drama not only for teens but for everyone. Two lessons I've learned are to never give up on whatever and studying means to live your life the right way! 

I RECOMEND YOU TO WATCH THIS DRAMA!!!

Here are the details, cast and so much more!  :)

Title: 공부의 신 (Gongbueui Shin)

Foreign Title: God of Study / Lord of Studying / Master of Study

Genre: School, Comedy, Romance

Broadcast: KBS2

Casts: ^^, (oh I'll be listing the main cast!)

Kim Soo Ro as Kang Suk Ho

 

 

Bae Doo Na as Han Soo Jung

 Yoo Seung Ho as Hwang Baek Hyun

 

 

 Park Ji Yeon as Na Hyun Jung

 

Go Ah Sung as Gil Pul Ip

Lee Hyun Woo as Hong Chan Doo

Lee Chan Ho as Oh Bong Goo

 

There you are! All I can say is that this drama is 5 STAR! 

^^,

KOREANZA! - Korean Sickness.. Korean Addiction ^^

안녕하세요!!! → Now.. that's Hi or Hello in Korea! Geez! One thing I can say about my friends in Korea: PAYTING! I love Korea. I love their culture. Most especially their series! ^^
hmmm which got me really, really, really attached at the moment is this series: You are Beautiful

Starring: Jang Geun Suk (Taekyong), Park Shin Hye(MiNam/MiNYu), Lee Hongki (Jeremy),  Jung Yong Hwa (ShinWoo)
너무 좋아요!!!! I really like it! ^^ I think I have this kind of sickness... I call it.. KOREANZA! I can't get over with this series! LOL Well, I know it's been like a year since its release but what can I do.. They're so good! Oh and if you want to watch this just visit: http://www.dramacrazy.net/ 
Oh.. I just want to say that the ending should end at A.N.JELL's concert.. hmm regardless.. The series is like 100!!!!  ♥♥♥

Ano nga ba?

Ano nga ba ang mararamdaman kung nakapanood ka ng isang kalungkot-lungkot at ng isang kaliligayang balita? Parang hinahalukay ang kalooban mo diba?


Pareho tayo. Ako ay isang Pilipinong mahal ang ating bayan at ang mga tao dito. Ang aking bansa ay maganda; hitik sa napakadaming natural na resrources. Masasabi kong mayaman din ang aking bansa. Tumingin ka sa kalangitan hanggang sa dagat, madami ang aking bansa na magagandang tanawin. Malungkot nga lang na hindi marunong ang aking mga kababayan na mag alaga ng kalikasan.


Ang nangyaring "hostage drama" kung tawagin nila ay isang bagay na walang may kagustuhan. Ako ay nalulungkot kung paanong hindi handa ang ka-pulisan sa kung paano mare-resolba ang sitwasyon. Malungkot dahil madaming nadamay na inosenteng indibidwal na walang hangad sa ating bansa kundi ang masaksihan ang kagandahan nito. 


Sayang. Sayang dahil nagkaroon ng lamat ang relasyon naten sa ating kapitbahay na bansa. Hindi naten masisisi na gnun nalamang ang kanilang reaksyon sa nangyari. Intindihin sana ng kapwa ko Pilipino ang kanilang paghihignapis at ang kanilang sentimyento tungkol sa mga nangyari. 


Ang mga Pilipino ay marunong. Ang mga Pilipino ay matalino. Ang mga Pilipino ay marespeto. Ngunit masasabi ko bang marunong, matalino at marespeto kung makikita ko kung paano hindi organisado ang humwak sa sa trahedyang nangyari? Masasabi ko bang marunong, matalino at marespeto ang kapwa ko Pilipino kung makikita kong nag papa litrato ang iba kong mga kababyan sa pinangyarihan ng trahedya? Masasabi ko bang marunog, matalino at marespeto ang kapwa ko Pilipino kung makikita ko silang nagtuturuan kung sino ang may sala? isang malaking HINDI!


Nakakalungkot na isipin pero ako ay nagpapasalamat sa Diyos na tayo ay PINALO NYA. Masasabi ko na isa itong panggising sa ating lahat kung paano ang KURAPSYON ay nilumpo ang bawat sekta ng ating bansa. Hindi lang po ang ating kapulisan ang kulang na kulang sa mga kagamitan, sa pagsasanay at sa kaalaman. HALOS LAHAT! Kung hindi ito aaksyunan ng may kinauukulan.. maaring maging huli ang lahat sa ating bansa.


Pero ako ay naniniwala na may pagkakataon ng pagbabago. Ako ay naniniwalang may panahon ng pagbuklod-buklod. Ako ay naniniwala na may panahong aasenso din tayo. Madapa man, hindi nagsisisihan kung baket nadapa kundi magtutulungan kung paano tatayo.


Gaya nalamang ng ating Ms. Universe 2010, Venus Raj. Bagama't hindi nasungkit ang korona, para sa akin magaling siya. Hindi man maganda ang kanyang sagot ipinakita lamang nya ang laman ng kanyang puso sa buong mundo. Na tayong mga Pilipino ay mapagmahal, marunong, matalino at marespeto. Kung nanghihinayang ang iba dahil hindi nakuha ang korona, sa tingin dapat hindi. Maging si Venus ay hindi nanghinayang at nalungkot. Yun ang pinaka magandang sagot sa tanong na iyon mula sa kanyang puso. Mabuhay ka VENUS RAJ!


Malungkot ngunit masaya naman. Ganyan tayong mga Pilipino. Lumalaban. Pero lumaban sana tayo sa tama. Kung dahil sa naganap na trahedya ay hindi mamumulat ang gobyerno na kelangang pinapalakas ang kapulisan at ang ating seguridad. Maraming nanghinayang pero sa tingin ko ang pinaka mainam na gawin nating lahat ay ang magkaisa sa iisang adhikain. Yun ay ang bumungon muli! Manalig sa Diyos na kaya nateng ayusin ang ating mga pagkakamali at matuto dito. Na pwede din tayong mangarap na magiging maganda at asensado din ang Pilipinas.


Hindi pa huli ang lahat. Kaya naten ito.

The Making of a Writer

I've never imagined that I would become a writer - - something like a writer. I remember not being able to finish my reading assignment because I am so lazy doing homeworks. So here I am, writing. Ironically speaking, I am starting to love reading and writing. I believe in this one thing though: God will give you talents to use in His kingdom. True. Everything works according to His purprose. 

It ain't easy being a writer. It has tons of things to do, tons of information to digest, and tons of words to remember, which you cannot see in anywehere in my personality. My writing instructor told me that "The pen is mightier than the sword." This is so true today. Most people would write or post something instead of talking to the person. Truly, it isn't easy to write. I learned three amazing lessons about becoming a writer.

One, It is not easy to write. True. Whatever you will write can go against you. Whatever you write requires intelligence. I couldn't help but sighing at this. I know God has a purpose why I am in this pit of writing. Writing is good, it's just it's not so easy when you write something intellectual.


Two, research is important. You cannot write what you know without knowing it. Of course! As a writer it's always to keep on reading in order for you to mean what you wrote. I love writing things that I can realate to like the adventures broken hearted people or gruesome eating habits or fitness.. first. Everything that I've experience. You cannot write what you don't know really. So if you want to write about something, get to know it first.

Lastly, be knowledgeable in technical stuffs. You cannot write properly without studying the WRITING 101. I've enrolled myself in an intensive writing class which able me to be aware with the things I have to know in writing, such as elements of an article, the do's and the don'ts in writing and so much more. Any techinical stuffs can be tough if you don't have any reason to study it.


Being a writer is one of the most challenging work. It requires full amount of energy, patience and passion to come up with a very beautiful, crisp, and bright ideas. It's not easy to write, doing research is important and being knowledegeable in technical stuffs are just to name few of the many things I've learned in becoming a writer. So, do you want to become one? C'mon! Get in the pool and let's write!

When you can't find your words.. you're just tired

True?

As I Sleep

I've never really thought about writing something my dreams. Actually I have recurring dreams about waters, oceans, lakes, whatever. It's recurring because every now and then I can get these kind dreams and funny that I can remember everything after waking up. Most people won't remember what exactly happened in dreams. However mine is different whenever I dream about somwthing waters.


Last night was one of the most magical water dreams that I've ever had. The scenery was in a beautiful lake. It was already night. I stood in a place where people are gathered. Not far from where I was standing, a beautiful green mountain and below it the beautiful lake I was describing. The water was quiet or should I say calm. I am not aware about how many people were standing around me, all I know it was noisy. Then there's this huge rock sitting on the lake. It was dark but its surface was smooth. I stood on the rock and something caught my attention that it made do something on that little piece of rock. After pushing at what seemed to be a button, a pavement emerged from the lake. A platform. Then I pushed the small rock and the platform banished. My good guy friend was standing right beside me, however I didn't see him. I was asking him to come with me and go to the other side of the beautiful mountain. The mountain has this long beautiful Chinese-crafted bridge connected to the place I was standing. I didn't see where I can climb and it seemed like a challenge finding the stairs going to the bridge. My friend doesn't want to come with me. So my dream ended in staring at that wonderful bridge and going to a beautiful place I've never been.


I have tons of water dreams in my lifetime. However because it was like ages ago, I couldn't remember most of them. Please don't misunderstand about what I've said. I can perfectly remember my dreams after waking up but I am having some difficulties in saving them up in my brain. :)

Friends Matter

When I was younger I often heard older folks reminding us about carefully choosing our friends. I remember the olden saying "Tell me who your friends are and I'll tell you who you are." My cool teacher had a good rendition of that saying she said in one of our Technical Writing classes, "Tell me who your friends are, and I'll say HELLO!"

Whatever culture you may be in right now, nothing beats what the Bible says about friendship. One of the most amazing verses that I have hidden in my heart is Proverbs 17:17. It says "A friend loves at all times, And a brother is born for adversity." New American Standard Bible. I like how The Message translate this verse, "Friends love through all kinds of weather,and families stick together in all kinds of trouble. "


Friendship is another world where we can be just ourselves or be the other self that we've been hiding for some reason. But God doesn't design friendship to be a place of pressure or torment. Being friends with others should be like one of the best place you can ever be. Like a family that loves and takes care of each other. Who doesn't want to be loved? We are people and it's normal for us to look for love. To look for a place we think we belong. A place we can really be ourselves. No holds barred. Just being carefree.


A friend is more than a noun. Being a good friend, a friend that God sees in each everyone of us, can help us be the best person that God designs us to be. The dictionary may have the definition of the word friend, but the Bible perfectly identify what kind of friend we should be with our friends. Open the living book called Bible and learn tons of amazing lessons in life that no other self-help books can ever have.


I hope you learn something here! God bless! :)

Uncomfortable

If someone asks you to do something you are not comfortable of doing, things will get a little bit cranky for both ends. And sometimes doing things that you don't want to do will make you feel like you are being forced to do that "something" Whatever you may call it; a chore, picking up someone or simply being asked to do folding of your clothes.

Most Young People today doesn't realize the need of being "The Man". According to my observation, as our world evolves into something I called "The Lazy-age", they too, have become like one. I am not saying that being in a world where technology keeps on evolving is bad. I am pointing out is that Young people keeps on missing the mark; The real reason why they are where they are at the moment.

If you think that there's nothing you can do whether its in your home, with your family, in your community or with your friends - you're totally wrong. God doesn't design us to be this lazy. To be thinking like there's nothing we can do for others and most especially for ourselves.

Think about waking up early in the morning full of goodness in your heart. Like, helping your mother in household chores, lending a hand to your brother or your sister, giving your time to cook for the kids Sunday School, stuffs like that. 

I am not going to be a hypocrite and tell these things and yet I am doing otherwise. All us fall short embracing responsibility. I am the most lazy person that you can ever meet in your entire life. (Ask my brother and Sister- they are the living proof of this kind) It's so hard to do things that you really don't do. I fully understand that. However what matters most is that you have that inclination in your heart to change what you see is not right in your life.

Seeing is the first step. Acknowledging will be the second. Acting is the third. If you don't see the need that you are in need inside your home, in your family, in your community, in your circle of friends. You will keep on missing the mark.

I pray that I've challenged you enough to look back and see what has been done and what you are doing at the moment. If you see things differently and wants change. Pause for a moment, ask God for strength and direction and He will surely be there for your aid! 

God bless.

No Man is an Island

Very true that no man's an island. Even the most reserved person in the whole world needs someone to hold on to or to talk to. It has been a struggle for someone to accept that he can't go on in life alone. He just needed someone. 

One thing that I've learned in life is to cope with its deadening force. No one can cope with a broken relationship or a failed marriage alone. It requires huge amount of time to heal and the unconditional love of that person's family and friends. However, even your though family and friends are always there for you; No one can truly exactly understand what you are going through and what you've been through except for one; Jesus.


No one can truly understand and can genuinely help you in times of need. One of the best thing that a person in need can do is to kneel in prayer and ask God to help him or her in this tough situation of his or her life.


Maybe there are things that you can't really bear, but with God, His strength is enough to carry anything you tell him. :)


Learn how to trust Him in giving your life -everything about you, every part of it. He'll gladly direct you in a way He sees you living your life to the fullest. :)

Pages

Pages of life. Every page is unique. Each page tells a story, an experience, a love story, a heartache and joys. Every now and then, people would find themselves in an awkward place where they don't even know what's it's called. Every page is different from others. It can not repeat itself, however it may feel like an experience happened before but on a different level. Still it ain't the same.
 
We are like a book; Carefully being thought of, Creatively created, Delicately written by Someone higher than any of us. No one can understand what will happen to our story. Only God and person can work hand in hand in making a beautiful life story that people around him will enjoy reading soon. Unless there's a giving of life or should I say surrendering a pen or pencil to the One who knows much better about life. Him who only knows how to write beautiful life story on each pages of life, unless the pen is being fully surrendered to Him, the book will be never done.

My Autumn Winter Spring

In life, there are many pre-requisites that one must experience before understanding what life really is all about. Amazing at how the Lord our God made everything for us peacefully in. God wants us to live in harmony with him and with the entire creation that he has created for every living creature. However things went a little bit out of hand not so long ago and the result is now. That is not grammatically wrong. What I was trying to point out is that, we are suffering the consequences of what we've done; we as human being. We abused every thing that God has made for us; taken for example the air we breathe, the water we drink and the wind that should replinish our tired body. All of those are now polluted. Whatever we are experiencing right now are the results of the things done in the past.


I am not an advocate of nature. Infact, I don't mind the nature because God holds us and is taking care of us but as I contemplate on how things are going and thinking end results in mind, I became a little bit cautious and I've found that it is important for each and everyone of us to be responsible in taking care of our home; Earth.


I don't want my grand children to live in a virtual world where they can only see oxen, sheeps, dogs, carabaos, hipopotamus, coconut trees, maple trees, pine trees, rabbits in a hologram. I want them to experience what is it like inhaling fresh air of the morning, listening to the music of the birds in the woods, bathing in the streams of a mountain, enjoying the rain and playing under the sun. If we don't take care of what we can save today, those who will go after us will suffer greatly because of our irresponsibilty. All the signs of destructions are here. Let's not wait for any organization to step up and plan for something. Start today in your own ways of saving our planet. We cannot live in another planet. There isn't any other planet in the milky way that a human being can live. God has provided everything for us and it is our responsibility to take care of it. Everything that we are seing outside this earth are the marvelous signs that God is truly amazing and is powerful over us.


I just hope that we will create that passion for the next generation of human beings to live in our planet. I just hope that they can still experience the autumn winter spring.......

The Sun that always shines

One early morning in a beautiful lagoon, my father and I rode our 2-seater old mahogany boat. We both love our early morning sails; the fresh cold winds on our faces, the icy-cold water that splashes on my face while my father tries to control the boat when it wiggles. We don't do fishing when we go out. We just hang out and watch the beautiful sun rises above the sky, giving him every light that he has to the earth to show God's majestic power. My father wouldn't allow me to hold the oars because he's afraid that my hands would get hurt. Funny, but all those time I thought that he just wouldn't let me. We were on the boad, him beside me as we watch the sun slowly rises above the sky. It was the most beautiful thing that my eyes have seen in my life. I saw how the everything lightens up and suddenly became really beautiful in my eyes. In my amazement, I looked at my father's old-aged face. He was smiling. His blue eyes reflects the sun, so peaceful. I smiled at him and he looked, smiled back at me. He tapped my head and said "like the sun, I will do everything and will give everything for you to shine and be beautiful as what you've seen here. To protect you and be sure of your future. With the best of my ability I will do it, I promise, cricket!" Then he hugged me oh so tightly. I saw my father's eyes rolled tears. I don't have any idea what he has said but I might understood the emotions he's trying to show. He loves me so much. I embraced him tightly too and said close to his ear "Daddy If there's one wish that God would ask me, I'll ask him to not let the sun down." My heart thumped and my eyes suddenly shed tears. I saw the big white seagull's flying, the pack of deers coming out from the bushes, the strong huge trees in the forrest and it's mouthwatering fruits, the cute colorful butterflies flying around the beautiful little flowers all in different hues in the field; heaven. I might be in heaven i thuoght. There's nothing in this world I could ask for more but this. I prayed to God earnestly to not let the time pass. That my father would always be like this forever. As my prayer flew in the heavens, as everything grows majestically in every place, so as my father and I. We hugged each other as long as we can.

Dreams.. Dreams.. Dreams..

I have seen countless of dreams made come true by those people who once owned them. I wonder if I can make my dreams come true too. It's just there are so many things that I want to do in my life time with so little time and little resources that I have at the moment.


What are the reasons why I want to do the many things that I want to do? And keep on dreaming big? I have no particular answer with those questions but I have this in my mind: That in every experiences in your life;either failure or success you find it in your heart that you want to do more. You can feel it in the deepest part of your heart that you can do so much better than what you have been doing and that you can do huge things as well.

What kills dreams is fear. Fear in all forms and sizes. Fear, if you choose to keep will subtly eat your dreams until you forget them! That's what I've learned in my 24 years of living in this amazing life. If you have a dream or dreams, don't be shy in pursuing them regardless of what you will hear in achieving it. It's your dream not theirs. It is you who will benefit, it is you who will gain it. Just make sure that in whatever plans you may have better consult it with God first because if it isn't His will, whatever you do, it won't happen. Don't feel bad if what you had planned never worked out, it only means that God has a much better and bigger plan for you! Don't lose hope! God is just shaping your future. You can endure life's pains! Believe me!

Though I have so many things that I want to do, I have to choose which one of them should come first. I can't do everything at once because I just can't; No one else can either. So, first thing's first. Which one should go first by the way? hmmm.. let me think about that.. and hopefully will come out with something concrete! I know what you're thinking! I didn't put list my dreams here on purpose but I have those in my mind, so no worries! :)

For now, I have to have a degree in B.S SAVING beacuse I really sucked at doing this. I didn't learn how to save when I was a little kid though. So, learning saving when you're a grown up and handling your own money's kinda difficult, but i guess I can do it! :) That's my frist step! :)

What is a Mother?

A mother is someone who has given birth to a child. That's what the definition of a mother according to our dictionary but what is it with motherhood that most women would like to be someday?

There are different faces of motherhood. The only face that a child can sometimes see is the strict face of a woman who hinders them of doing what they want to do. A woman who doesn't understand them in any way possible at any point in their youth life. Someone who doesn't know how to listen to their heartaches, who has favoritism, who loved the other child. The one person in the world that will know the least of oneself.

What is it like being in their shoes? Nine months of waiting and so many hours in the labor room and finally enduring the pain of giving birth to the most important person in the planet for her. YOU. What is it like raising a child that doesn't understand the pains of what life can give them? Understanding the ins and the outs of a compulsive mind, the mood swings of a moody child? The one person who sees you in the most special way that none of your friends can never see. The one person who sacrificed if not all but most of the joys, the luxury, the happenings, the reunions, the physical affirmation. She. Your mother.


You may have neglect her in some ways she doesn't deserve. We may forget her birthday or any special events in her life. We may have missed her shopping day or forgot to call in one of your night outs. You may often keep her awake late at night waiting for you to be home. Whatever it is, she's always there and doesn't complain about all the things that you've missed in her life but she keeps a hopeful heart that in time things will change for you and that you will understand everything.


Most of us have mothers to go home to. A mother that will aide in every painful experience that we may experience in life. You may not notice her doing everything for you. You may not understand her value today but in time you will, I hope that it won't be too late for you to appreciate her. You may not love her the she loves you today but in time, in God's time, you will love her for who she is and in what she does.  In God's time, whatever indifference's you may have it will be gone like a dark cloud in the sky that has been blown by the wind.

Motherhood is one challenging and worth sacrificing among any kind of works. Motherhood doesn't have any job descriptions, for it is one of the most unique responsibility that a woman can choose and ready to die for. Being a mother is sacrificing for your child's happiness. Being a mother is being patient to wait until her child will understand their life and situation. Being a mother doesn't stop after giving birth, seeing her child graduate and even walking her down that aisle. Being a mother is a permanent responsibility. It is not work for motherhood doesn't require any salary for her to keep on going. Being a mother is giving love everyday in the most unique way she possibly can. 

She was once like you. A Brat, witty, funny, crazy, can't get enough, moody, clumsy,cry baby, good friend, teachers pet, good listener, childish, shopaholic, loves escaping whatever, cuts classes too, sexy, wise, good follower, says her opinion even though it's harsh, loving even though it hurts, facing the toughest storm in her life, worrisome, troublesome. You name it she was once like you. In her most unique way she has been there at your moment. What is it in being a mother that we don't understand? I have no answer. Every mother is unique. Learn how to love your mother for it is what God wants us to do. 


Whatever you may call her, today is the best day to give back to everything she has done for us. Everything she has been sacrificing for our happiness. For the most wonderful, beautiful, patient, open hearted, open minded, crazy, childish, obedient and who loves me unconditionally. To my mother, I am sorry for everything that I've caused you. I thank God for you and for letting me understand what you've been and for what you have become because of your experiences and to all the mothers who are enduring the pains of motherhood.
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY! you deserve more than thanks. More than our sacrifice for you have laid your life or us. You deserve more. 


God bless!

When your friends get married and have kids...

Don't you find it a little bit off when all of your friends get married, then they'll having kids and you are still single? It's one disturbing thing to think about!

You may say that not all of your friends are getting married but they have their lovelives fixed, geez that's a totally different thing! You'll feel a little bit panicky on the side when you realize that you are the only person in your group of cute friends who have not been in a relationship at all- especially if you are in your mid-20s! The news will hit you like a thunder bolt!


First, don't panic girl! Things are still normal with you! It's just it's your friends' time to walk down that aisle. I know it's every woman's dream. Don't rush things and don't you ever question God why your prince in his knight in shining armor hasn't arrived yet! Patience is a virtue, remember! :)


Secondly, being single is so much fun! You can be whenever, wherever and whatever you wish to be! Life is vast! There are so many things to do than to think about the things you don't have yet. Concentrate on the first thing you can achieve like go to graduate school and get a masters degree or go to a place you have never been to before or become a very good nanny to your friends' kids and be thankful at being single!


Thirdly, your time will come. I know this bible verse has been everywhere but let me share it with you; 1 Corrinthians 13:4-7 (The Message): 
 " Love never gives up.
   Love cares more for others than for self.
   Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
   Love doesn't strut,
   Doesn't have a swelled head,
   Doesn't force itself on others,
   Isn't always "me first,"
   Doesn't fly off the handle,
   Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
   Doesn't revel when others grovel,
   Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
   Puts up with anything,
   Trusts God always,
   Always looks for the best,
   Never looks back,
   But keeps going to the end. "

If our very patient Lord isn't in a hurry about our love life, so why hurry? Take your time. Keep on praying! For sure your Prince charming in his knight in shining armor is just around the corner waiting for you to stand out! :)


P.S
Don't you like it that you like it that you can still stay free and gorgeous godmother to all of your friends' kidos! :)

Have you ever thought...

What will happen in a community where people don't simply trust each other? Or let's just put it in a much simpler situation. A family. What will happen if every member of a family is arguing about something? and that in every thing that needs to be decide upon will end in a long winding argument and will never be resolved at all?

Our country is facing another milestone or should I say another controversies? Changing the way vote won't be an easy thing. Being in the government isn't easy at all. We, Filipinos are highly intellectual being that we are fond of noticing mistakes and we love pin-pointing, condemning others for their faults. That character has been in our bloodstream for ages. 


The media made us aware about the things that we can do during this time. They have a point however sometimes freedom has boundaries as well. I believe that they know what to do, what to give out to the public and what to keep. Not all news are beneficial so it is better to filter the news that are being shown in every form of media. 

We can do something to make a difference. That's right but the biggest question is how? Every person is unique. Every one has their own ways of doing things. We have our individuality. However shouldn't be those unique individuality should help this nation be united? We are living under one nation but this nation has been divided by so many things; religion, point of views, motives, wealth, education and even the clothes we wear. We have been separated by these unseen wars that has been hiding in ourselves for centuries. Unless we settle everything that we have been hiding, this war will never cease.

I believe you know what has been happening. People is crying for help. Fairness has been long forgotten by many people. Helping comes only in time of crisis. Compassion is never present when people needed it. What's happening to the so called the-best-nation? 

We love praising ourselves too much that we fail to act on the simplest things that we always neglect. We love pointing at people for their faults because we thought it's not right! We love to complain at almost everything at anything! However, Have we ever lay our individualities behind and start doing things as one nation? I guess not.

Unless we understand the word NATION and TRUST, peace won't be anywhere closer to us; no change and no future for our kids in this nation! Let the government officials do their work. Let yourself do your own work as well. No one will stand for you and for us but ourselves. If you will go against by what has been written in here... then act for yourself. This will be an unending cycle downwards. Unless one give way, unless there's a chance to break and stop what has been happening it is only the time we will live in peace and in success. 

Act! Do! Shut up!

Just Observing

When I was a kid, I never learned how to love and appreciate the things around me; my family, my friends, just about everything that was relatively and physically close to me. I know it's weird. I never learned the word value until someone made me experience it; Being valued.


Let us not talk about who that person was. I believe that God lets us knew each other because of this reason and I am very thankful of Him because of him. Things have changed after that strong bumped and made me see things clearly now. I can say that bumped was one good thing that had happened to my life. So to him (I chose not to mention his name because he's been long gone. Maybe he's happy.. for sure.) Thanks


I guess the turning point in my life happens last month(that's April). I can say that April 23 is my FREEDOM DAY. :) I have witnessed the things that I messed up with, the things that I have neglected, the people I never dared to offer a helpful hand with, the family that I have closed my mind and heart with, the friends that I never thought would be an instrument for the many things that need to be healed in me (that sentence is awkward), the talents that even in my wildest dream I possessed and are waiting to be polished. I just have tons of things to work on. It was as if I slept for a thousand years and woke up with tons of spider webs plus many things to clean to. What a mess! That's the right phrase for me.

It's my decade. This is my silver year. :)

Unconditional Obedience - draft

“Whom shall we send? – Here I am Lord send me”
“God said it, I will do it”

When we obey, isn’t it we ask ourselves first before we follow? We often do the things that are acceptable and easy to do. Things that we choose for ourselves because we think it is enough; rightful enough; Christian enough.

Obeying is one of the hardest characters to develop especially if you are not being raised in a family wherein values are strictly imposed, though there are some individuals who are still in the process of developing this character find it really difficult regardless of their situation in their family or in their life.

In life, there are many things that you have to obey; the government bylaws, your school’s policies, traffic rules, company’s regulations and your parents’ instructions. Whatever you may call it there are things that we are bounded to do. If you fail to comply in any of these there are certain consequences that you have to endure. Living life can be complicated or easy depending on your point of view.

God created every one of us with our own abilities and capabilities to decide on ourselves; for ourselves. Who God is in your life will conclude the course of your life. Tons of people won’t give another second look about who God is and what He can do for their lives. It’ll be hard to determine your purpose in life most especially if where you are going to is blurred out.

A good thought is this: Unconditional Obedience. Obeying God is difficult if you have no idea who to follow to. It’s like trying reading a map – easy? Oh well try to read a map without any idea of how to read one – still easy? You can properly follow if you know who to follow to.

God have laid out several “house rules” and these should be followed. It is expected to be followed. Rules are being made by God for our own benefits; for our own good. God will still be God even without these rules. We, people cannot live in total peace if God haven’t laid out these practical directions.

Rules are not walls for the people who are following God to contain themselves inside. It is not to isolate yourself because God said not to sit in the seats of the mockers. We are still living in the world, in our community, with our friends and relatives who don’t have any idea who truly God is. It is not right to contain yourself inside the rules that you think God have been imposed to for you. God doesn’t design these rules for us to be inside our protective walls. Besides, if you continually do that, you will be contradicting everything you believe in.

In order for a person to completely obey God; the person must know who God is in his life and accept the fact that God isn’t only a God but His Savior as well. How do you know you are following God? Your heart will tell you.

God honors your heart and your decisions. He understands. He completely understands you. In fact, because God loves you so much, He is patient enough to wait for you in trusting Him with your own life. Only then, you will know that your life is in the right path. When you lay your life to God, you wouldn’t ask God where in the world you will be sent to. You wouldn’t be asking yourself if God’s will is comfortable for you or not. You will simply follow because you understand who God is in your life.

God hears your heart. He knows that you want to follow Him. He knows that people needs time to prepare himself, to decide upon himself and to completely lay himself to be a sacrifice to God. Unconditional Obedience.

Ending

I don't know what happened between us
Why things went this way for us
I hold on to every ounce of hope that's left for us
I never stopped believing that we can be together.

Not until you went away
Until you've let go of me, of us
Not until you have realized that you didn't love me
That you never loved me at all

My heart was honest in saying I love you
My heart was open for you
My heart wished only you for its beating life
but you crushed it. 


You went away, You went away
I just wish that you will never look back
I will  think that you are just a very good dream that I had
That I must wake  up and live my reality.


In my dreams you live and in my dreams everything will end
In dreams we can be together and in dreams you will depart
In my dreams I wished not to wake up anymore
In my dreams I wished that you were my reality.


Waking up may be the end of my beautiful dream-like love story
Waking up may seem too painful for me to do but I have to
In waking up either of us can live.
You have chosen the end of us. You have chosen my reality. Our Ending.